Maybe i'm just an unimportant passerby.
Maybe everything should go back to what it used to be.
Maybe i'm just causing trouble.


I've always thought.
you would be there when the sky was going to fall.
you would be there where there was gonna be a waterfall.
you would be there when life sucked.
you would be there when i needed someone to talk to.
you would be there when everything screwed up.


but that never happened.


You disappoint me, but i deserve it.
You upset me, but that's life.
You piss me off, but i did it first.

You made me happy, i didn't give anything back.
You made me smile, i gave you a frown.


Maybe, your life just sucks with my presence.
Although i'm trying my best to mend things up,
i know its not enough.

Tell me if you don't want to see me, talk to me.
I won't blame you.
I know the fault lies with me.

life seems bleak.

You make my heart waver.
I set my mind, but you changed it
i try to avoid, but it shot me.
i dontknow what this feeling is.
but i'mlost when i dont talkto you.
i cant help but worry
i cant help but get angry.
it just brightens my day seeing your name there.
i don't like the times where you're not around.
i dont like the times you break a promise.
i dont trust you.
i trust you.
i don't know whether i do.
i just can't help being unpatient.
waiting makes me distracted.
i can't concentrate
can't do anything.
i'm just thinking about you all the time.
i hope you don't see this.

Nah, i'm not gonna post about SCMUN. it is too amazing to be posted about. Honestly, i typed a at leas 3000 word post on SCMUN but, the come screwed and i lost the entire thing. so, i'm not gonna type again. just that, i love ga3.

Next, how's life. Just so awesome yeah? i guess i'm getting better day by day. Actually putting in effort to study, and do work. Just so much of becoming a hardcore mugger, i am addicted and stuck on facebook.

Well, i shall not elaborate much about my life, pretty boring. I love scmun alot. ga3 delegates, directors. My three days were fun, enriching, memorable. I haven't had such a great time for a really long time. It was just three days but we caught up really fast and i'm amazed at how bonded ga3 is. I can't wait for our awesome council's awesome outing. We're the best council.

Tell me, why are you doing this. You know i'll always be there for you. Or maybe you don't. But why do you wanna close yourself. I can't stand how you act all happy in front of me when you're aching behind. Somehow, when you told me that you just decided not to open up to anyone, i just started tearing. With your apology. I've not been talking to you all this years but we go a long way back. Why are you doing this. I need not know why you are so sad. But why cant you just tell me when you aren't happy. Don't act all so happy and cry behind. i know its cause of that girl. But i don't request from you to tellme the whole story. I just want to know how you feel. It hurts to see someone you treasure lying to you. I guess you know that right. I'm not going to talk to you. Until the day you tell me you've got over it. If you don't want to tell me the truth. Anyway, i'll wait.

Why are you doing this too. I know db is important thing to you. I rly feel like telling you, let go of ***. She's not worth you. Stop looking down on yourself, saying you are not good enough. What happened to you a month ago? You never gave up. although you were being ignored. What happened to your goals? I know you can make it. I rly don't want you to give up. Because i can see how hard you're working towards it, how you pick up everytime you fall, i respect you alot. i really do. I wouldn't just let anyone call me a slut. Just be patient. Looking at you give up db makes me lose all my motivation. Don't do it. Seriously. I know, as long as you try, you can do it.

"You'll always be a part of me, i'm part of you indefinitely. Girl don't you know you can't escape me, ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby."